When I just a kid, I was fear of the outside world, especially foreign country. That’s so strange because children are the most curious species. But no one can stay the same all the time.

In 2013, I was 14 years old. My school develop a summer-camp project, which purpose is gaining more money. This summer-camp includes a 2-week trip to London, the U.K. You know, I had no sense of this project because I was a child only wanted to stay indoor and play computer games. However, things would never be so boring. Teenagers always change their mind beacuse of something ridiculous. At that time, there was a pulchritude girls in my class, and lots of boys loved her, included me, although I had had a girlfriend who is also beautiful. That girl, who might be the best girl in my class, showed great interest in this event. I was so excited: “WOW! In a foreign country with a good girls, I can find a desolate palce where I am able to do something with her(maybe have sex???)” It was irresistible to a young and bloody teenager. So I was determined to join this project.

It is unversally acknowledged that things always don’t turn out the way you want. That girl didn’t participate in this commercial project. Consequely, I had been a lonely time in U.K. Lonely but happy. It was the first time I went to an unfamiliar place alone. U.K is really a liveable country. Not only is the pasture covered with pasture, but the clean and tidy villas also makes me feel good. In that time, I have a longing for studying abroad. But I was still averse to live in other country.

Things that really changed my mind is my university. Because of my “perfect” performance in the college entrance examination, I came into the international school of BUPT, which is an expensive and bad school. Students here are so rich that most of them are glad to spend a large amount money study abroad. Because of the domestic educational environment and my shcool, I have to choose the same decision as they do.

All in all, I have to learn English for TOFEL and GRE. I don’t know who
created stupid ETS , and made such tormenting F**KING tests. I must wake up very early(6 a.m) every Saturday and then go through a full day of English baptism, which is more harder than high school. I don’t understand why I have to pay so much. Is it for my dream school CMU? In order to earn some money? To get the love of my girl friends? Maybe I had forgotten my first goals. So time is back to my childhood, what am I thinking about at that time?

穷则独善其身,达则兼济天下。去做一些事情，给这个世界留下一丝印记，为人们奉献一点属于自己的色彩。

Since I used to be such a boy who hates foreign countries, it’s hard to imagine that I will eventually embark on the road to study abroad. What is even more incredible is that I have been already a vulgar person. But this is not irreversible. I need to raise my eyes and cross the city skyline to relive my true dreams.

All in all, I have made up my mind to study abroad. The rest I have to do is to study hard and then say goodbye to China? I hope so.